I don't wanna feel like this. It's awful. And I can't help it.

What are words if you really don't mean them?

   They are nothing. But how can I know if you meant them or not?
   I'm hoping you meant them, though you're not showing them.

I'm not gonna sleep tonight. So I will probably fail my english test because of that.

When you leave I always wanna cry. I don't know why. It's just like that. It's much easier when I leave. But when you leave it's like I just wanna die. No purpose in living then. I don't know why I feel like that. I shouldn't be feeling like that. It's not fair against you. Cause you'll probably read this.

Thank god it's friday now.